During a phone conversation the other day my mother admonished me not to allow Tim to become my whole world. Of course, she was pointing out that even though we were married we both would need time apart, he with his brothers and friends, and me with my sisters, and of course my mother. Oddly enough that isn't where my struggle lies. When Tim's brothers arrived at our house two Sundays ago, I was pleased that he would have some time with them, knowing that those few weeks before the wedding had been to hectic. I was excited to see my sisters and cousins at the bridal shower last Sunday because I needed to discuss the many changes my life had taken with the women who knew me best and would understand. No it is easy when time allows to run off with the girls. The difficulty lies in making daily time for my Saviour.
People assume because your father is a preacher you are spiritual. The assumption is greater when you marry a minister. I'd like to think that I am spiritually in tune with the Creator of the Universe, but more often then not I spend time thinking about, rather than spending time with Him.
This is a struggle I had before marriage. It didn't magically disappear. "Well I'm a minister's wife now I have plenty of time and desire to read my Bible." Life doesn't work that way. The desire is there, at times. The time is there, if you desire it. Yet, when those moments arise why is it that I am so quickly drawn into another direction; my house needs cleaning, I need to update my Facebook status, I really want to finish that book, now to rotate laundry, maybe I should call my mom, look Tim has a moment free this could be fun. Even this blog can be used to separate me from the Lover of my Soul who is patiently waiting to spend time with me.
I recently read a blog by a friend of my who is not a Christian. Yet, she knew meditation was key for her to feel at peace, that sense of "time out." Then I open my Bible and read Psalm 81:13, "Oh that my people had hearkened unto me..." My thought is that there is a loving God who knows the crazy world we live in better than we. He knows the strength and wisdom we need to walk in it. So why aren't we taking time to meet with Him daily?
Currently, I am going to sign off this computer and head over to the church to spend some time at a piano with the One my soul is truly longing for. What are you going to do?
I believe you are able to spend time with God in numerous ways. When you are writing this blog, you are constantly speaking about him, but sometimes I actually sense that you may be "messaging" him. I'm sure God can change with the times like we do. ;-)
ReplyDeleteEvery moment that you even THINK about God is a moment spent with him.